I guess we really did fall in love when we were kids. I know from how I wake up every morning. From how I see your face in every dream. From how i wake up thinking about the kiss I would get from you if you were here.
It’s been so long. So many years. So many days that I’ve lost count. But every night when I close my eyes, there’s still something in me that wishes I would open them in the morning to see you. Theres still the hope that one day my hands will hold yours. I won’t ever love anyone like I love you. You’re getting deployed soon. Don’t forget me Misha. You won’t if you haven’t already. But one day I want to be able to call you my wife. The thought of you keeps me alive. Harm to you hurts me just as much. We haven’t felt this for so long for no reason. It would be a waste of life and love if we don’t spend the rest of our time together. When I have fun, I wish I could share it with you. If only to see you smile. If only to know that you are happy. I hope that you are happy currently. Don’t lose your love. You are a beautiful and amazing person. No matter what happens, don’t forget that about yourself. Don’t let yourself get lost in sadness. You deserve it. I wish I could give you happiness and love now but I can’t. One day I promise I will vow my own life to making yours better. One day I will be able to see you smile. If you still want me there. Until then, please don’t forget how great you are, how beautiful you are, and how much I sincerely love you.